Lost, hurt, tired and lonely

Ok.. I`ve chilled.. sortta`. The music`s still bangin` in my head. Sleepy. Vewy vewy sleepy. There`s absolutely no way I can get out of the house and it hurts like hell. ‘Where do I go from here ? I gotta beat this city.’ Yea` right, mess with the best, die like the rest. Ok, fine, no one to talk to, so I`ll talk to myself again around here. No one will read this shit anyway, so it`s more than ok. :) ‘:)’ my ass, I haven`t even smiled today. Not a bit. I miss my own smile.. I miss the ‘:))))))))))))))))))’, the ‘aahahahahahaha’ ( or ‘agagagagaga’ in very phunny situations where I`m not able to control myself. ).
Uh.. there`s a phuckin` wild pig in my stomach, crawlin` and yellin` for food. Sick of everything and I need food ? Let`s get serious ( `cause retarded we are, as I can see ). Well.. Dusk – Chillout In Ibiza. ‘Sweeeeeeet inspiraaaaaaaaation’.. :) Now that was a real smile. Damn ! A piano ! I need a piano ! I wanna play the piano part in the song.. ueaaaaaah.. :/ ‘Somewhen’ I`ll have a house and buy myself a huge artistic piano.. and a mixer.. and many DVDs and CDs.. Dream on, baby. :) Hm, I`d better watch a movie. Do I have Christmas movies ? Of course I don`t.. I`ve got Tiesto on 4 CDs.. like that`s gonna help now. :/ I can`t get anything goin`.. dammit.
Ah maaaaan.. whatta sound, whatta music, whatta bass.. ! Did I die and go to heaven ? No, impossible, I saw my dad at the door for one second. :) We`ll sure not go in the same place after death. Either I go to hell and my folks to heaven, either the other way around.. `cause I`m sure both God and the Devil won`t stand us if we`re together. Sad, but true. :)
Lost, hurt, tired and lonely.. indeeeeed. What if I`ll go to bed ? Hm hm hm ? Will anyone mind ? No, I guess I`m a better company when I`m not around.. :)
How can I write so many bullshits all together ? Shit on me ! I sure am special, but in the worst way possible.. :) ( My conscience is killin` me, I can see that.. )
Fine, done talkin` to myself like I was two different persons. Evanescence – Anywhere. Lovely song. :) Phuck Christmas and all that comes with it ! Like Cristi ( hell, my good friend from USA ) said.. ‘We spend our lives lyin` our children about some fat old guy that gives free presents and then, at Christmas, we all stay together with the persons we hate the most : our families.’ .. How true is that, on a scale from 1 to 10 ? 12 !

2 thoughts on “Lost, hurt, tired and lonely

  1. “‘Somewhen’ I`ll have a house and buy myself a huge artistic piano..”
    HAVE SOME MERCY ON THE NEIGHBOURS ! :))))))
    “‘We spend our lives lyin` our children about some fat old guy that gives free presents and then, at Christmas, we all stay together with the persons we hate the most : our families.’ .. How true is that, on a scale from 1 to 10 ? 12 !”
    You all brats should be thankful for having a family. You`ll see how X-mas is when you don`t have it anymore.

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