From normal to stupid – part I

Oh my God, there are a lot to be said here. This is the promised phunny part.. :) And yes, it is tomorrow, and I`m writing it. :)))))))) Starting with a few classical facts..

1. English class. We had to write a composition about heck knows what.. I can`t remember, it was a long time ago. Tziru was reading her homework, the teacher was listening to her. Well, Tziru is kinda zero with English, especially when it comes to reading, so when she had to say ‘slowly’, guess what came out ? ‘Shlouli’. Aaaaahahahhahaha.. :)))))))) Jesus, even the teacher was laughing with tears. Not only then, but even now, when we deliberately put a ‘sh’ in front of everything that starts with ‘s’. :)

2. Same English class, me reading a text about Celts and God knows what other ancient civilisations. When I get to the part where the text eulogized the way they were fighting, instead of ‘fierce fighters’ I say… ‘fierce fingers’. : Yea`, sure, go ahead and laugh. They did laugh, but not as they did with ‘shlouli’. :))) Nothing will ever compare to that. So, ultimately, got myself a new nickname.. which really pissed me off : ‘Degetzica’.. Translated it means something related to a feminine small finger. :P

3. I have this colleague.. Bandean Vlad Aurel ( also known as Aiurel – you know, Eeyore from Winnie The Pooh episodes.. :) )..

No, he doesn`t look like him, but his name is alike, adding one letter. :P Anyway, this Bandean character ( must mention he`s one of the people I get along just fine ), has this weird but very phunny practice. When somebody shouts at him, or tells him something he didn`t expect to hear, he simply points a finger at that person, then looks away totally disorientated `till he sees someone else, and then, looking at that someone else, he says.. about the person that was talking to him : ‘He`s so stupid..’ .. Mwaaaahahahahahahahahhaaaaaa :)))))))))) I simply bursted into laughs when I first saw him doing that.. Now I amuse myself with Ioana as well, which is not very familiar yet with my noticing phunny details custom. She`ll get used to it. Bandean gets an A for this one.. I`ve never seen anything so phunny. :)))))))

4. At the Biology class, Lavi and Shefu` were reading essays about animals` behaviour. That was one hell of an hour ! :)) I swear I can only remember the ‘sniggering’ type of laughing from primary school, it never happened to me in Papiu.. Anyway, here`s the story. Lavi first. She read something about bats, and some experiments in which wax was pourred in their ears and eyes to test their orientation skills.. aaaaahahahahahahha, man, I never heard about anything so stupid as these experiments ! :))))))) Well, it wasn`t just the content of the essay we were laughing about, but Lavi`s way of reading is absolutely awful.. Ioana and I couldn`t stop laughing.. and Lavi couldn`t read beacause of us. :))))) Shefu`s turn. He wrote about dolphins.. and the experiments that have been made by ( hold on, this one`s rich ) .. ‘dr. Lily’.. Aaaaaahahahaa :)))))))))) He actually wrote about someone called ‘dr. Lily’.. Mwaahhahaha.. :))))))))) Ok, Pavel sleeping with his forehead on the desk puts a stop to any desperate try not to laugh.. Goddammit ! :)))

5. Before our French class, me and Ioana were becoming diabolic thowards Tziru, we wanted to get her wet, sharing the little water we had left. Uhm, that was before my idea of ‘Let`s wet somebody who deserves it.’ .. and we both looked at Lavi.. :))))))) We acted like two phuckin` retards ! Lavi, of course, got nervous and took a bigger bottle of water.. and got both me and Ioana soaked. You could squeeze water from our T-shirts. :)))) Well, the classroom suffered as well : the back wall was wet, but also some historical pictures and maybe documents ( phuck knows what those are ).. My formmaster is teaching History, and well, our classroom is a History cabinet. Laughing our asses out, we watched Lavi as she hurried tryin` to wipe the water on the desks and wall with her uniform. :))))) She even hangged the uniform on the wall so that the wet part couldn`t be seen. In that very moment, Dobreanca ( the French teacher ) walked in, and when she saw the disorder, she started to shout.. ‘What the.. ? Take that away ! ( she spotted the uniform ). What happened there ?! Allow me to call your formmaster to see this !’ Yea`, she behaved worse than a three year-old. Our formmaster came. ‘Who`s responsible for this ? Please stand up.’ Ioana, Lavi and I got up.. ‘Don`t you have anything better to do ?! Three handicapped..’ .. and she left.. Aahahahahaha.. :))))))))

This is it for now.. too long already. Part two will come soon. ;)


Pf.. many, many things happened lately. So many I`ll just overview a few as there isn`t enough time to put them all down. Only the major stuff, and then the phunny ones. I`ll focus on phunny, not only because there is a lot to tell, but because.. phunny get phunnier. :)))))) Fine, let`s get down to business.

So, one major event was my dad coming to school. Aw man. :) I was so anxious that day ! All this negative energy I`ve accumulated in me ever since he told me he`d do that.. all the darkness in me came out, party, fortunately. I wasn`t so worried about the fact that he will see my grades or my unexplainable truancies, but I was more than anxious only thinking about what my formmaster might say to my dad this time. Retarded bitch.. :) I swear that if I ever get to the last year of highschool under her uhm.. guidance, I`ll tell her a few things to remember me better. :P Anyway, a few hours before my dad`s appearance at the school, I was deeply thinking dark, and I found myself, surprisingly, sharing my burnded thoughts with Ioana. We think alike, we have the same ideas, same conceptions, we are making fun of stupidity and platitude and we get annoyed when it comes to injustice. Our conclusions before my dad`s arrival : WE DON`T CARE. It`s nonsensical gettin` freaked out because of some grades. What do my grades say about me ? Nothing ! Absolutely nothing ! School is a big bullshit, a trivial phase in everyone`s life before ‘becoming somebody’. Phuck the system ! How can you let a grade, received for some multiplications or equations, change your entire life ? HOW ?! But it does change your life, believe it or not. Sad. Extremely sad. Aaaanyway, my dad`s meeting with my formmaster went smoother than I thought. She didn`t say anything bad about me.. except truancies and maths, but that it. My dad did get a little annoyed, but after a couple of days, he told me.. ‘You know, your formmaster is kinda.. silly.. mm.. stupid, you know ?’… Aaaaaaahahahahahhaa.. :)))))))))) It moved my heart ! :)))

The phunny part will be posted tomorrow, I need to sleep now, I can`t keep my eyes open. Goood niiiight, world..

The return of the thesis

:)).. I`m Lord Of The Ringsistic, I know.
Well, the math one was a total fiasco. I think I`ll spend my summer studyin` all the math bullshit. I`m failling. Can only save myself with.. 4 X 10.. Whatta joke ! There are better chances of winning some loto jackpot. Not only that my whole summer and freedom will be compromised, but the fact that scares me the most is that I lose my place at Sanitary highschool. Isn`t that shitty.. ? After I finally managed to get along with my colleagues.. pf, why is this happening again ? It`s like there is trouble where I go. My second name is trouble. Trouble who ? Trouble Math, Trouble Family, Trouble Love, Trouble Friends, Trouble Society.. Trouble Life. I`ve got plenty names. :) How do I feel ? Disappointed because of myself, hating every piece of my unexistent brains, and carrying it alone, as usual.
Despair caught me in the day I found out the grade of my math thesis. I just got up from the chair in the middle of the French class and went outside (the teacher didn`t come), seeing black in front of my eyes. I felt overwhelmed by pain and disgust by everyone and everything. Is this what I`m going to remember from the last period of my childhood ? Is this the summer in which I`ll be 18 ? Is this what I`m going to tell my nephews (if I`ll ever get to that age) when they`re goin` to ask me about what`s it like to be an adult ? I can`t take it anymore. I swear. Nothing`s going ok.
I just wanna be left alone. What am I sayin` ? I am alone. I can`t seem to find understanding. It doesn`t even deserve being looked for. ‘Ooooh, Roxa, everybody knows her, she has SO many friends and such a lovely life !’.. Like Cotoara in the English classes says.. BULLSHIT ! Friends ? What friends ? Who am I turning to when I feel all these ? Who ? Nobody. Who turns to me and asks how life is ? Nobody. So what friends ? I stand alone.

I`m going rocky mad…

Eating seeds as a pastime activity
The toxicity of our city, of our city…
How you own the world ?
How your own disorder, disorder… ?
Now, somewhere between the sacred silence
Sacred silence and sleep.
Between the sacred silence and sleep…
Disorder, disorder, DISORDER !
System Of A Down – Toxicity

In Search Of Elite :)

DJ Tiesto`s In Search Of Sunrise 4

This is probably the best trance compilation of the year. DJ Tiesto can be excelled only by himself. :) Officially, it has been launched yesterday, on 5th May 2005. There is something interesting about this anyway. Tiesto`s having a party in which he`ll mix sets for 5 hours. Nothing unusual `till now. Well, this party is only for his forum members and tickets can be bought only at . Weird guy, must say.. :)
The songs in this compilation are absolutely gorgeous. Anyway, here`s the tracklist:

CD 1
01. Solarstone feat. Jes – Like A Waterfall
02. Tonedepth & Soultan – Moments
03. Ahmet Ertenu – Why
04. Jasefos – Do What U Want (Max Graham Mix)
05. Wighnomy Bros. – Wurz & Blosse
06. Coca & Villa – La Noche ( AWESOME !!! )
07. Tilt – Twelve (Dousk Mix)
08. Luminary – My World (Andy Moor Mix)
09. Steve May – Blend Forty 3 (Luke Chable Mix)
10. Gabriel & Dresden – Arcadia
11. Split Second – Midnight Express
12. BT – Force Of Gravity (Tiesto Mix)
13. Allure – The Loves We Lost
14. Blank & Jones – Perfect Silence (Ecraig Mix)

CD 2
01. Estuera vs. Relocate – Palma Solane
02. Inner Stories – Beyond
03. Pos – Gravity
04. LNQ – People I Used To Know
05. Mads Arp – Slow It Down (Mathilda Mix)
06. Dominic Plaza – Sounds Rushing
07. Matthew Dekay vs. Proluctors – Bad
08. Electric Pulse – White Noise
09. Grayarea – Gravity
10. Tiesto feat. Matt Hales – UR (Junkie XL Guitar Mix)
11. Odyssee – Evolution
12. Progression – Sands Of Time
13. LSG – Netherworld (Oliver Prime Mix)
14. Sensorica – Only One (Rave Mix)

… and the cover :

‘In Search Of Sunrise 4 is Tiesto`s tribute to sun and sand, open air venues and long summer nights, inspired by his tours through Latin America in 2004 and 2005, where he visited Brasil, Argentina, Peru, Costa Rica, Colombia and many many more.’ Great one, I tell you. Tiesto emphasised the strange guitar sounds ( if you listen to Coca & Villa – La Noche you`ll get my point ). I stronly recommend it to the ones that say ‘ TRANCE FOREVER ‘. It`s worth it, there is no doubt that DJ Tiesto is proving once again he`s the world`s no. 1 DJ.
Elite ad
I`ve been searching for the beautiful melody in the Elite ad for a looong time, and finally I`ve found a clue about where I should get it on Softpedia`s forum . Anyway, for those interested in this lovely song, you should know that it was written and composed especially for this ad. You can login to Yahoo! Mail with the user : helloinme and pass : thankyou. In Inbox you will find Pit Hupperten feat. Nikki McCoy – Hello In Me, Elite ad`s song.

Thesis strikes back…

How can I not hate life ? :) I mean.. come on. First, today : thesis at maths. Don`t wanna talk about it. Harder than I thought, I`m not quite sure it`ll be ok. My mom`s already planning to hire a math teacher for the summer. She`s gettin` more and more convinced that I`m failling.. and she`s not the only one. Oh well, what can I say ? BORING. I`m gettin` used to this. Really. It`s dull. My life`s dull. Why ? Because everything goes bad for a… long time. Got used to it, dammit ! It`s like.. this is the way it has to be.. any good thing that gets me out of this commonness it`s like some rain in the desert. Deserts don`t suffer from the lack of water. No, it`s in their nature to have droughts. Same as I feel now. Empty and cold-blooded. Nothing can move me, bad things are part of my life now. It`s like everything`s stuck in that shitty state ( and I`m not talkin` only about school here ). When you`re ill, your body produces antibodies, so that the virus you`re infected with can`t strike back again. Same here : once that it happened to me, it can`t hurt me the second time it does. I`m not sayin` I`m made of steel. It`s just about little things and school.
Anyway, back to school.. Guess what ? I`ve been informed that tomorrow`s the day for the biology thesis. Four of us are being tested at that subject. Well, ‘informed’ because I`m totally walkin` on clouds.. or not. In my notebook it says ’13 May’. Heck knows what I should believe. I know shit for tomorrow, but who cares ? :)
There goes duck sayin` I don`t know what about me ignorin` him.. in an SMS. Oh well, got used to that too, as I did with doing everything on my own shit, and carry them all by myself shit, and… well, everything else. :P He can`t seem to remember I`m out of credit, and myX`s not reliable.
So I`m…
  • boring
  • predictable
  • stupid
  • silly
  • annoying

… and more recently : numb.

Feeling mature.. riiight!

Oh suuuuuure ! :)) I`m so mature it hurts ! =)) Well, Easter came, and so did the 1st of May, which equals with duck`s birthday. Not having money and not being able to think fancy really develops your creativity, as I`ve seen recently. Oh and uhm… I said creativity, which doesn`t correspond to maturity. Not at all, not any connection whatsoever. I have to admit I`m still only a kid ( I`m not officialy 18 :P ), with no possibilities of making money just yet, so with absolutely no decent way of buyin` expensive gifts. Probably, this is for the best. I always buy presents from the heart, even if I don`t have the funds to purchase a watch that worths millions, a costly perfume or other extremely expensive things. Ok, it`s not that I don`t have the money. I could ask my parents, but I don`t. I never did and never will. Why ? `Coz I`m too stupid and proud to do it. C`mon, I don`t ask money for myself… :) I guess what comes from all the stupid affirmations I`ve heard ever since I was a kid : ‘Oh she`s an only child, she must be a spoilt bratt that gives hard times to her parents. They must be spending a fortune on her !’. So, maybe I am a spoilt bratt.. and I give hard times to my folks, but I sure won`t let them feel I`m a pain in the ass.. at least not financially. In conclusion : people, you must know that even if I don`t spend my parents` salaries on the presents I give you, they always come with the best intentions and with all my love and care. Take my word for it ! :)

So, here`s what I did for duck`s birthday : took this picture :

and modified it into :

… in Windows`s Paint. Ahahahahaha.. :)))))) Maybe you`ve recognized him. It`s Squidward Tentacles, from the SpongeBob SquarePants cartoons, one of duck`s favourites. Why ? Because, as you can see from what I`ve modified, he has the ‘whatever’ look ( just like duck ) and he doesn`t care much about what goes on in Bikini Bottom. Oh well, great cartoons, I must say ! SpongeBob and Patrick have these stupid laughing styles which I can easily imitate… so that he can say the ‘I`m surrounded by complete morons !’ line. :)))))))))) So, I ordered a T-shirt with the modified picture and it turned out ok, even if the Signet guy couldn`t do it with good materials that ‘will be devastated once the T-shirt will’. Anyway, I`m glad he likes it. :)

Here`s one idea of a future T-shirt for me. It`s Lumpy, from the Happy Tree Friends cartoons. :))))))))))) It`s a simple image, I only have to transform it into a vectorial one using Corel, raise some money and get my T-shirt done.

As I was sayin` before, these all conclude to the fact that I`m so mature you can actually see it pumping from all my insides. :)))))))))))))))))) Cartoons all the way, singin`, laughin` and gettin` retarded in the Weekend complex last night, acting stupid for duck`s birthday ( for which I apologize :( )… Oh, by the way, it seems I can`t stand goin` out with the Digitek gang. Big BLEAH ! I did change a lot when it comes to that. In my opinion, they`re dull and hypocrits about their lives ( some even when it comes to me ). But hey, there is always a Cipri ( D-Bilu ), Lila, Mircea or TDI that can make you think different. :)

So once again, happy birthday my precioussssssssssssss ! :)