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Here goes 2005`s review.
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– got my driver licence
– got my Cambridge diploma ( CAE )
– my first article got published in EgoPHobia e-zine
– changed school, which turned out to be a good thing after all.. :)
– discovered rock music and all that comes with it
– seen Apocalyptica and Paradise Lost performing live.
– been at Peninsula festival, which actually changed my life
– met new people.. been accepted in the rocker`s small ‘community’ :) – Cotoara, Bandean, Pavel..
– regained Adi and Csabi as friends
– owning a classic guitar and being able to play Metallica`s ONE with it ( ok ok, only the beginning )
– discovered the cure for soul in music
– my back didn`t cause any trouble this year
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– lost first love
– still haven`t found the balance between love and friendship.

2005 photo album – session 2

The pooh dog.. Csabi`s gift. Told you it`s freakin` huge. :)

That`s the famous Morar Andrei, the author of so many pictures around here.. He`s only 1/2 rocker, not entirely converted, but it`s on our to-do list. :))) Oh, and in the last picture, you can see his nails and the reason they`re so famous for. :)))))))))))

Aahahhahahahahahaha, I declare this the picture of the year.. that`s Steel, with his nose and mouth stuck on to a window in Star FM studio.. :))))

Crazy Dorin.. crazy posture. :)))))))

Uhm.. that`s Adi.. :) First picture he is ‘a rocker’. Second.. he`s ‘sleeping’. :)))))))))

Ultraviolets in the floor. Bizzare Pub. :)

The cross near a Christmas tree. Antithesis ? ;)

Xmas and beyond

So.. hmwhat ? What if Santa was so giving this year ? My folks got me a classic guitar, Adi a TV tunner and Csabi a big pooh dog.. and I mean big ! Like a meter or so. :) I would have never imagined that coming from them.. I mean, yes, we`re friends, but.. :) It means so much to me. :) Not the gifts as they are, but the fact they gave them from the heart. Thanks a lot, guys.
My Christmas tree looks awesome, the atmosphere is great, it`s snowing, but.. of course, Christmas.. started bad, with a terrible hangover from Rock Xmas event ( where I had the chance to listen to Godmode from Cluj – love `em – and Fading Circles again – adore `em !! ) and an unsual depression ( met duck after half an year at the event ). A few hours of agony, of silly questions about all the Christmas fuss ( like.. what is Christmas all about ? Why is it considered such a great holiday ? Why can`t I feel the spirit of Christmas ? What should I feel exactly ? I should be glad about what ? Singing carols about a God I don`t believe in ?, etc.. etc. ) and everything was ok afterwards, when I met with Adi, Csabi, Steel and Criss at Star FM.
Hmmm.. Christmas is nice because of other things. For example, I now have enough time to watch movies, listen some new music, write, talk to the guys on messenger, going out. It`s holiday, and on holiday everyone relaxes. :) Here are some pics I`ve noticed on my computer. :)

Silly SensiBlu reindeer I photographed after a Tubor Strong one Friday. Isn`t that cute ? :))

That`s Bandean Vlad Aiurel.. :)))) I wrote about him in the ‘From normal to stupid’ series.. great colleague, one of the 3 lords of rock in my class, the biggest Judas Priest fan alive.. :) In the first picture, he`s wearing the jacket he bought.. he looks so damn cool.. and in the second, well.. :))))))) I don`t know what he`s doing, but lemme tell you he is NOT peeing… hopefully :P.

Oooh.. ahahahahaha :))))))) That`s me. Nice hair, huh ? It was a bet.. I got 10 RON for lookin` like that during Maths class… with all the pink accessories included. :) Dammit !

Pavel.. another rocker.. you already met 2 of them. Ahahaha, that grave is in a park near our highschool.. some soldier with the same name as his is burried there.. :)))))) That picture is modified in Photoshop.. you can see Pavel`s ‘ghost’.. :)))))))

Cotoara at Peninsula.. last rocker from the trio of guys. I`m suppose to be the forth wheel. ;)

And a smiley globe. Not to forget it`s Xmas.. :) Pictures rule.. Second session.. ? As soon as I get home.

Infinite lamentation

Sorry I`m away that long.. :) It`s just that these final weeks are putting a stop to my residual energy. One more week and there comes the weirdest time of the year.. Christmas and stuff.. I don`t know where to hide this year from the lack of money. I don`t even know what I want for Christmas.. a guitar, an iPod, a motherboard, some more memory.. an audio system. Oh screw me :) I want them all, but all that`s gonna be in my pocket for Christmas is 20 RON. What should I buy with those money ? I don`t even have enough to buy my friends or parents something with `em, not to mention myself.. Then what should I do ? Ask my parents money for my friends and.. the other way around ? THAT.. is lame. I`ll just tell them all I`m broke. :P
And now I`m ruuuuuuunnin`.. like an angel.. to the suuuuun.. My God, this song from Guano Apes completely rules.
Neverminding the song, must say I feel like a bag of daily laments. All I can do is complain. I hate this, I hate that, that guy`s stupid, that bitch sucks, school sucks even more, fuck the system, kill the government, I wish I was all alone, I wish I wasn`t so alone, I wish I had a beer, I wish my head didn`t hurt.. DAMMIT ! This should stop. Somehow, being me probably isn`t easy, but my state ( even my state of mind ) is a lot better than anyone`s, if I look around. Wish I could indulge mediocrity, but I can`t. There`s nothing here to satisfy me completely, so I go into this abyss searching for some hidden absolute, but all I can find is more nothing, or just some complex phantoms, illusions.
It`s winter. I wanted to say something in order to complain again, so I`d better end this post here, `till I won`t totally get on my own nerves. Oh, that picture Andrei Morar gave me is beautiful. It`s what he saw one morning from his window. Fantastic, hm ? Still… winter. :P