Why did I wrote it three times ? Must be because of the silly Christmas song I can`t get out of my head, now that I wrote the title. :/ This always happens : I remember a song ( most of the times, a stupid song I don`t even like ) and there it is, trapped in my mind; sometimes I walk around the house and I start to mumble it, if not even sing it. And then I go.. ‘what the f… aaaww, Goddammit !’. Well this is one of the songs I can`t get rid of right now, even if A Perfect Circle and Audioslave are doing their best.. maybe I should pass to Children Of Bodom and Sepultura.. or even Burzum, Dimmu Borgir.. who knows ? :)))
Anyway.. the idea was : it`s snowing. I was long waiting for it and I love it. There`s this tiny sparkle that lightens up whenever it snows for the very first time.. people start to sense the spirit of Christmas, they become better.. or at least I know I do.. I turn soft, even if I can`t quite promise this Christmas I`ll be listening to carols instead of metal or hard rock. :)
These are some pictures _ADI_ took for me.. from his window. I like the way the relationship is going.. but there are several details ( I`m obsessed with details ) that still bother me.. We haven`t told to any of our folks we`re together.. they just know we`re hanging out a lot and we`re best friends.. they got used to the idea `cause it`s been happening for quite a while now.. and I`m talkin` about three fuckin` years. Well, mom`s starting to get suspicious.. is it good or bad ? :) Why don`t we wanna tell ? To let some time pass.. for the spirits to settle.. it`s enough pressure already coming from our friends.. Adi never had a girlfriend before, imagine the pressure on him now.. and on me too.. they go way beyond normality ( in time ) with the questions. And I kinda feel I want all to happen now, as well.. I`m greedy when it comes to love, but I promised to myself I`ll have patience with him, teach him everything I know.. I mean.. he tells me he`s sorry he doesn`t know to hold my hand right or simply.. to hold me right.. Imagine what a virgin he is.. :) The advantage is that, after all these tourments, he`ll have the exact shape I moulded him into.. and he`ll always remember me and be grateful for my patience.. so I guess this reward is enough to keep me going, don`t you think ?
Snow like in fairy tales.. Wish everyone would feel what I feel when it snows.. Hope. Don`t give up, you can make things better.
“The advantage is that, after all these tourments, he`ll have the exact shape I moulded him into..” oh, yes you’re right…and the good part is that this “virginity” makes your relationship last longer than you thought :)
Btw that stupid song you have in mind and you can’t get rid of it: This carol is ok but what do you say when a horrible romanian song is the one you can’t get rid of?…and this only because my grandma always sends me over to the store where every old lady is listening to the dirty radio, with dirty songs…kinky lyrics and so on, and so on, and so on..hehe, I wrote it three times :D
It seems like I’m the only one without snow.. That makes me sad :(
Ivett :) .. Didn`t it all look too good yesterday ? Even too good to be true… Too good, too good, too good. :) ( bitter smile )
Mystique.. your time will come :)
dudette, breathe in, breathe out. damnit, let the guy be!! you know what the problem is with girls or women? they non-stop seek for the right guy and when they find him they spend a lifetime trying to change him.
That`s such a chichee.. unfortunately I`m not tryin` to chance him.. I`m sick of fighting :)
i don`t like clichees more than you do, kiddo, but some of them are ridiculously true.